Whatchulyyyyyke?

When people are pissed off at the world for their problems and act like the world owes them something. The world doesnt owe you shit. God didnt make this world just because he wanted it to owe people. God made the world so that we can live in it and it is up to US to deal with whatever comes our way. Get off your sorry butts and stop acting like there is nothing that you can do. To me, there is ALWAYS something you can do. Everyone always thinks that I am such a happy person and that nothing phases me….

FUCK THAT… The reason why i am the way i am is because of all the things that i have been through in my life. There are …. things that was done to me as a child … by someone who i never thought would do to me for almost a whole year straight … thats as far as im going to go into it…. my own parents and brothers and sisters still dont know… but you know what? Thats okay. It has made me THAT much stronger as a person because even at that young age i knew, i knew i didnt want to be in that situation anymore. so i DID something about it.

i have had to grow up SOOOO much faster than all of my other friends at school. I had to raise a child basically all by myself because her mother was not really fit to raise her alone. I am her legal guardian. I call her my baby no matter how many times she gives me a headache … she is 13 now. Can you believe that? I had to raise her since i was 8 years old. Most 8 year olds were still outside playing with their friends! while i had to stay inside and bathe her, feed her, change her diapers, deal with her tantrums, put her to bed etc. As tedious as it was … i wouldnt have had it any other way because … i can officially say … thats MY child as well. 

Oh and here is another bugger, im gay. Yups, im as straight as a crazy straw. I may not act like all flaming and shit but you know, growing up with a bunch of boys (SAMOAN boys especially) does things to your masculinity i guess. Growing up and being surrounded by the words “Gay” and “Fag” used as a derogatory term were not easy to listen to. Even if it wasn’t even said TO me. Just hearing it used to bash another person would hurt because then it told me that there in this persons eyes, I am something evil and frowned and looked down upon. But like im implying. i had the strength to get through it. it doesnt phase me anymore because all i see is ignorance and misinformed people. 

There is soooo much more i can go on about the hardships of my life, but i dont feel like making it any more public than i already am now. The main idea of this whole rant? Life fucking sucks, but only if you LET it. There is ALWAYS a choice. It may not be an easy one, but guess what? Life in most definitely NOT easy. When you hit a wall in life, dont just stop, turn around and find another way. When you hit rock bottom, smile because you can only go UP from there. Dont go around being angry at the world and do stupid shit like drink nonstop or smoke weed ALL day. Remember this, there will ALWAYS be someone who has it a hundred times more worse than you do and they STILL smile and embrace life for all it has to offer.

I know some people will say “well not everyone is as strong as you Jossio!”. well FIND that strength. everyone is strong in their own way, find it and FIGHT. and there is NOTHING wrong with asking for help. It takes a REAL man/woman to ask for help rather than quit…..

The End. 

(Source: jossiossio)